You might have realised that lately I was feeling so so sad about someone that I used to really liked. Last week was the worse. The first days of the week I was still liking him, not until the weekend came. I told the story to my bestfriend from my previous school. She studies in Florida while I am in Iowa. We met each other in Italy. She was my roomate. When it comes to thing like this, she always be the one who can give the wisest words of wisdom to me. She just understands me so well, even though we come from a very different culture. She is like a big sister to me. Her letter made me want to cry in happiness. The way she looks at the problem is really different. She also see the positive side of myself that I never realized about. I am sharing the letter for anyone out there who thinks that love is not on their side, anyone who enjoy the feeling of being in love but at the same time was turned upside-down because of love, anyone who believes that soul mate does exist and true love is not a cliche. I hope this will help anybody out there to answer the mysterious riddle of love.
Dearest Rut,
I am so touched by your kind words, but please know that nothing makes me happier than helping my friends. So being there for you when you need me makes me feel better as well :)
When it comes to love, I feel like I can really relate to you and your situation. For me, I always end up having feelings for someone and then it never works out, OR I end up with the wrong person. You're not fucked, you're not unlucky, you are perfectly normal. If anything I'm jealous of you. Sometimes I give up on love completely, and a think that a part of me has. I haven't had too many good relationships that have worked out... I think that's because I never had true feelings for those guys. The kind of feelings that you have when you find someone you like. I'm really proud of you for making the effort to talk to him. You may not believe it, but you have come a LONG way. You have gone from not talking to the guy you like AT ALL, to sending anonymous letters, to inviting the guy you like to a party. Those are very courageous and brave things that you have done. We all go through life at our own pace, we all tackle our hurdles in our own way. You shouldn't give up, this is simply another hurdle that you must overcome. Sometimes I wish that I had the same feelings for someone that you have for (censored). But I think that I have reached a point in my life where I just don't care anymore. I enjoy being single and happy and free, and the great thing is... I'm okay with that. I think what I'm trying to say is, everyone is different, and I know that this message is one long cliche, but its true. You are one of the rare human beings left on Earth that is a true hopeless romantic. That is a beautiful thing. I've never been in love... who knows maybe someday I will be. But you see... for me I'm not certain. I could go on living my life completely independent of a relationship and be totally happy. But for you, I am certain. I know that you will find the love of your life eventually. Maybe you will be one of those lucky girls who finds their soul mate and is only with them. So, don't give up on love, it doesn't stink, it doesn't suck... its just hard and frustrating, but when you find it... I'm certain that it will be something so wonderful that all of your heartbreaks thus far, will be totally worth it.
Message me any time you need to! Love you!
xoxo
Your bestfriend
